Worst Nightmare

Yesterday night, I slept like 2.30am and I had the most terrifying nightmare. It seems so real and I was awake by this freaking nightmare at 4.40am.I felt so breathless and almost suffocated by my thick blanket over my head until my mum help mi take it off. I remember the time so clearly because after I woke up I quickly looked at my handphone for the time. I remember clearly in my dream, I was so afraid of the bloody scene and tearing in fear, in order to calm myself down I started to chant and can you imagine I was still chanting when I wake up? I felt so weird and terrified. Nothing can express out my true feelings. Perhaps, it was the chanting that bring me out of the nightmare. I took another 30 minutes or so to calm myself down and fallen asleep again.

Recently, I kept having bad dreams that are so real and scary. I keep telling myself it’s only a dream but it’s really mentally torturing. I wonder why I have been having nightmares so often. Is it I’m under tremendous stress? Is it I’m thinking too much? Is it I have been sleeping too much? Is it I’m asking too much from life or you? Why my heart is always having the walking on air feeling, nothing seem secure to me? These questions kept circulating in my mind. Hopefully, the nightmares will stopped haunting me if not I guess I will go insane pretty soon. I seriously hope to have peaceful nights and sweet dreams instead.

Sometimes I really hope to hear this “Don’t be afraid, it’s just a dream. Nobody is going to hurt you and everything will be fine with me around.”

May I?

慢慢的 這份愛 悄悄的住下來

深深的 在心裡 沒人看的出來

安靜的 但卻一直都在是你默默的愛

慢慢地 這份愛已經變成依賴

淺淺的 笑容裡 卻讓我充滿期待

不用說 我就能夠明白你默默的愛

Something is amiss. I felt so empty and weird.

Frustration

Shattered !

I was trapped in the lift in NUS block S5 ..... Waited for nearly 15minutes before it function again. Well, my feeling at that time was, depletion of oxygen ..... However, currently i also felt a hint of oxygen depletion, you know why? Because I M DOING ORGANIC CHEMISTRY NOW!!!!!!!

Gloomy :(

I totally detest ORGANIC CHEMISTRY SO MUCH ….. I hate school ….. Haiz …. I GUESS I’m on the verge of going bonkers….. I feel like SHOUTING OUT LOUD across the sea ……………. But too bad, I couldn’t. I can only blast the music so loud to distress. Have you ever mug until you feel like crying….. ??? Today while I was mugging alone in school, happen to find one metal paper clip, I started to twist and turn and eventually I broke it into several pieces. Some thought just enter my tiny brain. I realize that no matter how strong you are, if too much force is exerted on it, it will eventually break into tiny pieces just like the metal paper clips